I have to admit, I am usually really positive. People call me Miss Positive or Miss Smiley, but lately I haven't been feeling that way. Don't get me wrong, I am very grateful for the life I have. I've been raised with superior morals, lucky to have a roof over my head, a decent job and a circle of close-nit friends. However, I feel like everyone is starting their next chapter in life. Meaning, they are growing in their careers, getting married and having babies!
I know, I am young and it's okay to be single and have no responsibilities. But, I just got out of a relationship where everyone thought we were going to be the first to get married and start a family. Soon people started passing us by and we split. Now, I look at the "Happy Holidays" Card from my best male friend, who I never thought would settle down, and I stare at a picture with him, his soon-to-be fiance, and puppy. On a side note, when did holiday cards with boyfriends and girlfriends even become popular? I swear anyone I know that's in a relationship has sent me a card! That never crossed my mind.
Any who, so I stare at their picture and it makes me realize I want to get married and have a family soon. But, why does it get me so down and out. I just want to curl up in a ball and weep like a baby. But, I won't because I need to hold myself together and know I will move forward.
I never want to be that type of person who's life revolves around work, but I tell you the past few days staying at work has kept my mind off of how lonely I am. It's sad that I feel this way and I am trying to get out of this funk.
Has anyone else ever felt like this?
I always end the day on a positive note. So after all my banter I will tell you what was positive about my day and why I appreciate my life (even though I may seem a bit sad right now, I am still grateful and have meaning to my life).
I am so grateful to have my family... I am grateful to have parents call and check in on me, support me, and even nag at me. I know the nagging is only out of love and to guide me the right direction, to help me make decisions that can only better my life.
I appreciate the hugs, laughs and tears we all share together. I do have to admit I love my family and I am the luckiest person in the world to have them.
I end on that positive note.
